¨Goddess" is an overused word.
Look over here.
I am that girl
The first and the middle and the last and the always girl.
Yes! -THAT one.
The girl you had the crush on in kindergarten, your eyes sliding over to see
if I'd be
Your secret Valentine.
I am the joy in that five year old's smile, always, for you, and,
I am her joy, she is me.
Today I cried, though. I feel no goddess at all.
When I was away gathering wood for our hearth, she whispered to you
And you frowned and nodded and said " Yes that must be true"
And you both said "Go. We don't want you."
And now I feel small.
I take out the bright mirror and the dark mirror,
The dark mirror sings
"You are ugly, old one. You are wrong.
The dark mirror has a song like a lullaby buzzsaw. It sings
"Oh what I say is true,
The gifts you give are tainted. No one loves ,or could love, or WILL love, or HAS loved
such a one as you."
I can feel my strength rain away.
I reach for the bright mirror too
The bright mirror says nothing, for the bright mirror is busy doing her own makeup
The bright mirror says "Am I as pretty as her? What can I do?"
Throw those mirrors away, sister . The only mirror here is you.
So? You gonna cry or you gonna play ball here or what?
We say together:
YES no YES!
I will not let anyone steal my fire
You will not be my Prometheus
And if you do steal my fire, so what?
Stolen fire goes out and leaves you in the dark
My fire keeps replenishing. You cannot handle my real fire
For then you'd have to know that you have your own.
I am the singer in the storm.
I am my own medicine. I make this from all poisons .
I love my own grace, wit and style enough that you don't have to...but you will.
Ohhh you will.
I have the interdependence
that is the true independence,
A bird entwined with the wind,
I have unlimited riches that are also yours
I am like a queen so entwined with her people
I am proud of the love of making songs
that flows through me like I am the trout and the river too
I will be vulnerable ...but not foolish with it
Generous.. but not foolish with it
Foolish but not fucking stupid
If I am foolish we will laugh together
I laugh with you at the joke of our own being.
I am proud of the tender heart that nestles in my breast like a bird.
I am happy to be happy. Sad to be sad.
But my emotions are my own.
My life? is is my own. Yes, I bend towards those I love, like a reed,
I sway back to stand tall again
against the river
I am truth. Simple and in bloom.
I call in the spirits of my ancestors to surround me with family love.
AOnce they arrive, we open the door to friends:
I call in Hare Spirit, who always sees the joke
Who guides the seer in her tent and brings food and water
To the oracle in her cave
And jumps away fast, white tail mocking your slowness
I call in Ant Spirit for working when I don't want to work particularly
Thank you and fuck you Ant Spirit.-No, really.
I call in Beautiful Oshun for love and abundance,
I call in Wise Minerva for intelligence,
and Probably Lesbian Artemis to protect me
with her bow and slightly ironic arrows
I burn sugar for the Hungry Ghosts and they don't notice me in their greed for sweeties
Rush past me out the side door, unbiting, full;
I am that Valentine filled with moonblood,
I am the healer, skin against skin, breath combined to make me part of you
There has never been a such as I
I am the only one like this, made of mud and snot and orgasm and fireflies
Of mirrors light and dark, the spider and the spiderweb,
I am the only one like this!
Throw back your head and let your throat reverberate with your yell
that you are the only you
And I will see you again at sunrise
And we will do this dance again
Daily, the same.. only?